sad...:(

sad...that's is...totally sad now...
the one who take care of me when i was baby is just passed away...
sigh...
yesterday night i went and visit her house...
the memories came out in my mind...
i look her picture...my tears sudden come out..
i know i cannot control myself...my mom ask me wanna see her or not...
i want actually...but i scare i cannot control my tears..there's alot of people over there..
so...i didn't see her lastly..haix...
i remember i very scare of her when i was little..
.she is fierce..but actually she very sayang us.
last night...
that is the last i meet her..rest in peace...
you're always on my mind..
thanks for guidance when i was little..
thanks for your caring when i was baby..
RIP..

i'm sick almost a week already.

a week already ar...
what's wrong with me?
i just eat bread,porridge everyday.
my mouth is getting bitter and bitter everyday..
so suffer you know?
when i only can recover?
fever still got alot,
seriously sore throat..
serious headache...==''
urgh!
i didn't eat rice and meat almost a week..
i'm drink alot of water still cannot get well!
going to see the second doctor..
the doctor give me mec again...
he said if still din recover or better 2moro..
he suggest me go hospital already...
huh?!
what?!
hospital?!
no!
i don't want!
the doctor said that mec is quite stronger than i ate before..
after i eat it..
i feel whole my body is itchy!
i'm allergy on the mec!
argh!
i never ever like this before!
i scare...
i so scare...i tell you...
my hand...i wanna scratch it also cannot..
will become more and more serious later...
now,
i stop take mec...
gonna wait 2moro and go hospital take blood..
see whether how..
scare see my hand and arm...
red red..and itchy..
wuwuwu....
i scare...
i scare to look the mirror..
i scare to look myself...
no blood colour on my face...
lips is colourless..:(
i really scare....
i don't want to die so soon.:(
bless me...
get well soon,foong lim.