累了~~

今天，和妈咪去吃麦当劳。。
唉，天啊！怎么那么巧?我昨天才吃来叻！
不能吃别的吗？==唉，最后还是吃得饱饱的。
我超爱的big Mac~肥死咯~好不容易才瘦了点。
昨天和某人发生了不愉快的事。
对不起，我不应该这样怀疑你。
我该相信你的。不，我的确相信你说的。
只是，也许我误会了。如果你真的在写我的话我真的是伤透了。
我接受不到如果你这样看我。因为我根本不是这样的人。
不过还好，今早我们还有说话。不过。。。唉~

回到家后，要干嘛好？
无聊死了！做功课？要咩~ 很懒啊。。
最衰今天没得去parade。。和那两个傻婆~
好久没一起闹了叻~好怀念我们三剑客一起同班的日子~
今天又没得去篮球了。莉盈的话让我想起你。他说我们真有默契。
叫同一杯水。是啊~又怎样？如果昨晚没问你有没有留的话我看你不
会叫我留的。心痛。。我已经很尽力把我们的感情拉近，
可是我再怎么主动你也从没放在眼里。就像昨天一样。
是时候要习惯没有你陪我了。可是，真的要这样吗？说真的，我不想！

很烦啊~很无助你懂吗？！
不开心~今天我自己锁在房里，听我最爱的音乐，看我最爱的书，躺在我最暖的床，
不知不觉就这样睡着了。。。

I wish i can leave this town for a while,
and go somewhere is peace and silence...
I'm feeling so lost...
stuck inside a world i hate...
I'm sick of everyone around,
with the big fake smile and stupid lie!
You all might think I'm happy,
but i'm not gonna be okay!

...

Take some time to smile when you're sad.. to rest when you're tired.. to love if you're feeling empty.. & to let go if you need to. time endures, time heals. in this life, just take some time for yourself..

blah blah blah stuff.:P

Yesterday didn't go school...haha...extremely tired...
went parade and buy my personal stuff...
GOSH...spend all my cash in my wallet...==
so.....
bankrupt again....><
sighsssss....next week kena go eat American's lunch with yan may and kar ling...
gonna collect money for that...
umm.....
wonder delicious or not~
Today,
parents's day.......
so what??take it easy....I'm not so scare actually...
just pretend i very scare in front of my friends...
haha....because they very scare,so I follow....
LOL....
why i want pretend??==
today bring a normal feeling go to school...
then saw my friends...and chat chat chat...
and play play play...
and gossip gossip gossip someone...
and laugh laugh laugh until we roll on the floor...
krazy~~
yeah....i thought today is greatest for me...
I'm freaking hyper-active today....
don't know why...
Maybe yesterday i have a good good night...:P
thanks someone console me last night....
i'm always feel better after i chat with him...
he just like a "trouble-solver" for me...
HAHA...
But..........
after recess...
my mood was change...sudden change u know?
I don't know why....
is that my problem?
or I'm already bear of you for so long?
sorry,man...
I'm damn straight...
I will straight away tell that person...
so i know some of them cannot accept my attitude...
SO just leave me...
i never place you at my eye level...
umm....
so after recess me and my friends went to the hall and see they
promote their college and blah blah blah...
After me and yan may walk back to class...
janice and kar ling haven't back...
then me and yan may start to chat again...==
i know yan may beh song the person too...
I am too!
then the person come back and sit with us...
I don't know why when she said something,i look like scold back her like that...
actually i don't...
i want keep my feeling...
don't want have a war with her...
but is really annoying!
I'm out of control!
I'm being rude to her...
even give her a finger...
i know i lampau alotttt...
i also not willing to see this happen..
why i'm so bitchy after recess?
I didn't mean to hurt her...
everyone know she is FAKE...
I'm suck of it! so today finally expose!! BOOMMMM~~~
but I really hate she like to pretend and SHOW OFF!!!
especially boys! always say rubbish!
look your mirror first!
said people boy friend yong sui and what!
look back you those EX-boy friendsss then!
They handsome?
They good enough?
yours only the worst in this world!
before say people can think of your those EX first?
u don't malu ke??
I am sure i make a good fight today.:P

wish tomorrow is a good good day.

i have a lot of thing want to do for tomorrow...
haha...
happy that is no school tomorrow...
i can sleep until the next morning!
yup...
recently just sleep 5 hours everyday...
look at me!
pimples! dark circle !
yeah...
tomorrow relax..
i can do whatever i desire!
watch my favorite drama!
gossip girl~ xoxo
oh ya ya!
i can read finish my story book...
HAHA..
put at the table for so long..
dust on the book..xD
today is janice's birthday...
i make my 1st DIY for her...
a birthday card...
inside have a cupcake..
haha..no money to buy a big cake for her...
and just a little present...xD
wish she will like it.
AND.
I love my life now...
I don't hope have some changes..
don't force me to change somethings that i not willing to do so..
sorry....
Life is cruel...
HAHAHA!
I survive in this earth for myself...
not just for you...

sad...:(

sad...that's is...totally sad now...
the one who take care of me when i was baby is just passed away...
sigh...
yesterday night i went and visit her house...
the memories came out in my mind...
i look her picture...my tears sudden come out..
i know i cannot control myself...my mom ask me wanna see her or not...
i want actually...but i scare i cannot control my tears..there's alot of people over there..
so...i didn't see her lastly..haix...
i remember i very scare of her when i was little..
.she is fierce..but actually she very sayang us.
last night...
that is the last i meet her..rest in peace...
you're always on my mind..
thanks for guidance when i was little..
thanks for your caring when i was baby..
RIP..

i'm sick almost a week already.

a week already ar...
what's wrong with me?
i just eat bread,porridge everyday.
my mouth is getting bitter and bitter everyday..
so suffer you know?
when i only can recover?
fever still got alot,
seriously sore throat..
serious headache...==''
urgh!
i didn't eat rice and meat almost a week..
i'm drink alot of water still cannot get well!
going to see the second doctor..
the doctor give me mec again...
he said if still din recover or better 2moro..
he suggest me go hospital already...
huh?!
what?!
hospital?!
no!
i don't want!
the doctor said that mec is quite stronger than i ate before..
after i eat it..
i feel whole my body is itchy!
i'm allergy on the mec!
argh!
i never ever like this before!
i scare...
i so scare...i tell you...
my hand...i wanna scratch it also cannot..
will become more and more serious later...
now,
i stop take mec...
gonna wait 2moro and go hospital take blood..
see whether how..
scare see my hand and arm...
red red..and itchy..
wuwuwu....
i scare...
i scare to look the mirror..
i scare to look myself...
no blood colour on my face...
lips is colourless..:(
i really scare....
i don't want to die so soon.:(
bless me...
get well soon,foong lim.