A pain that i couldn't tell.

Looking the view outside...
is raining...
My heart like raining too...feeling down and moody..
rain every day...when the sunshine will appear?
is not like in the holiday mood..no sunshine...
every day is cold..make me lazy and make me wanna sleep..
Holiday mood is gone..didn't go genting,didn't go thailand..
just go to KL..GRR...just KL..too bad...
and just tuition every week...
That's not the holiday that i wish for..
wake up at 2pm,facing the laptop and play those stupid games until 7pm?
then bath,eat,pps-ing?
I can count with my fingers,how many times i had hang out with my buddies
this holiday...is suck!
That's why i said in facebook's status:"everyone had their fun,
and i have my fun too."
i am? is not that fun! without friends!
some of them working this holiday,some of them camping,some of them dumping me,
some of them missing in this earth!
alright,I have my fun too!
I having my fun to read books,magazine,watching pps,online,playing those idiot games at facebook,say craps with my twosister,then 6pm go out for cycling..
This that really fun?!
I repeat those same things every day...
Just has something is better,traveling with family.:]
that's all..
that's the worst holiday i ever had!
I'm not happy,I'm ALONE!
almost stay at home every day!
lame! spoil my mood! the weather is bad.
I'm pretending that i having fun with my own in front of my friends.
actually is not that fun..what can i say? is lonely,I'm dying...
meaningless holiday~
but what can i do?
who's care?! who's care!
Nobody care..
is just feel like i had been dumped!
Nobody care my feeling or even ask"how are you?" to me.
I wanna find someone to tell something also can't.
there's nobody here for me..
there's nobody lend me their shoulder..
I couldn't cry...
because i know is not worth..
I know everyone is having their own best friends..
everyone has something to busy for...
So,i keep silent...
the suffering will disappear soon,right?
and I will be okay again,isn't?

virus everywhere.

sighs...
i get sick again~~
I thought i'll be fine,but.....can't fight with those virus~
That's all my little sister's fault..she get sick first...
Then she spread the virus to me and another sister...
ewww...I hate sore throat,flu and cough...
it make me hard to breath and I lost my stamina...
Weak...Luckily I'm feel better...
and my sister too..we recover...
Now...turn my daddy get sick...
our virus spread to dad...HAHAHA.
too bad...now he just lay on the bed and sleep..
Turn us to take care of him....
haix....
now virus is everywhere...
My thailand trip was cancel...
cause H1N1 is coming back...
my mom worry...so next week we are going to the beach!
Langkawi~ yeahh...not bad...
so,dad....recover faster...I want go out and playyyy!
HAHAHA..

To all my friends,weathers change always..sometimes cold and sometimes hot
like HELL! so,take care,my buddies and my dude. drink more water and don't get sick.
Love you! xoxo

Meaningful.(=

Giving Up Doesn't Always Mean You Are Weak.

Sometimes It Means That You Are Strong Enough To Let Go.

A different side of me

everyone has a dream,right?
the dream i want so far...would you like to know? HAHA.
is impossible but i hope it could really become true some day..or tomorrow?:P
Alright,guys. Please don't laugh at me..I'm not kidding. it's true.
you know what?

I wanna be a Rock Star,and a superhero!
Living in dream,doing the things that i wanted.
I wanna see my face on the TV one day,with the picture on the cover
where my friends could see a different side of me.
I know everything is gonna change for me,
if it could happen then you will see a different side of me.
I won't be waiting for the life to pass ahead of me.
So i want to do whatever i wish for and let people to see different side me.

I'm jealous!

Yes! I'm jealous! I'm f**king jealous!
i thought you were different. i thought you were care.
you know why i'm jealous?! because I care about you.
You think I'm really like to jealous? NO!
Just because I care about you!
why you don't understand?
If I'm not jealous,that's mean i don't care about you anymore.
mean you not worth to jealous,you not worth to care.
why? your mind just having her!
you bored only find me...when you no need me or she doesn't here you
only find me? why you don't put your effort in our relationship?
is it the best you can do?
Grrr....
to be honest with me,are you fooling me?
is it just me idiot care about this?!
okay! from now on,I won't pick up your phone! I don't want hurt anymore.
I don't want waste my time anymore. You not worth for me to do that!
You got your secret to share,but i think i'm the last person who know.
You always told me that you so sorry about that,
but you make this mistake over and over again.
now,i don't believe you like previous because you cheat on me.
tell me honestly....
how heavy i am in your mind?
I've been give you many chances,but all you do is just disappoint me.:'(

School suck.

what for i go to school?
Just sleep and playing monopoly with friends for a whole day?
Sitting alone and read books? Ohh~ school suck.
This is why i choose to stay at home today...
Test paper just ask someone help me keep first..HAHA.
result...not the marks that i expect to.
sighs..think i can't get the target...
wake up early in the morning today...
playing facebook..facebook suck too...There's nobody i want to talk to..
And where's my friends are going? none of them here when i need them...
Friends suck..what friends really mean? Just tell me!
Urgh///
what can i do? seriously,i need some social...need to meet some new and gorgeous friends
desperately..
Is saturday tomorrow! Then?hang out with my buddies or stay at home better?
Cause i'm not in a good mood recently...:(

Silence Night

what a silence night...
what is happening? haix...
all i need is just some space...
yeah,right. just like now...
nobody at home,just me..foong lim in the house at night..
simply think again...
think what? what i really need actually?
i lost my way sudden...
alone..thinking of nonsense stuff?
no please...i don't want like that...
tomorrow will be better,is it?
is saturday...gonna crack my science books!
Start to crack tomorrow..i promise!
tonight,i don't know what's up...
so silence..i off the TV,FB,MSN..just read some story books,
listen to the music...and blogging now...
why i'm look so miserable?
is there anything bothering me?
i know,All i need is just fun!
if i got this,i won't so depress one.:(
faster holiday...
i want to leave this town for awhile..
i sick of going to school! some haters is there.
i don't want to look her face.i will vomit~
Emo mood turn on: This is what i feel now..

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