oh my Gosh! My auntie's house can't on facebook. too bad.
i didn't online for 4 days already.
I miss my facebook abit.
My cafe world~ My dishes ar~
hmm..yesterday mom and dad back to ipoh already.
Now just left grandmum,sister and me.
bored..couldn't on facebook. Luckily still can blogging. HAHA.
but i rather on facebook 1st.
cause got alot of friends requests.
oh! outside this condo got cyber cafe.
wanna go out and play..but i scare..very strange.><
here KL wey..not ipoh. feel so strange.
yesterday shopping at mid valley..
we almost lost our way when went to there.
Luckily we reach our destination finally..
having a fun day with my faily..
we bought a lot of things..
there's many sales.xD
hmm..besides shopping,I want skating too! sunway~ i must go there.
So,hope my buddies coming here soon. Then i can skating with them.
Looking the view outside... is raining... My heart like raining too...feeling down and moody.. rain every day...when the sunshine will appear? is not like in the holiday mood..no sunshine... every day is cold..make me lazy and make me wanna sleep.. Holiday mood is gone..didn't go genting,didn't go thailand.. just go to KL..GRR...just KL..too bad... and just tuition every week... That's not the holiday that i wish for.. wake up at 2pm,facing the laptop and play those stupid games until 7pm? then bath,eat,pps-ing? I can count with my fingers,how many times i had hang out with my buddies this holiday...is suck! That's why i said in facebook's status:"everyone had their fun, and i have my fun too." i am? is not that fun! without friends! some of them working this holiday,some of them camping,some of them dumping me, some of them missing in this earth! alright,I have my fun too! I having my fun to read books,magazine,watching pps,online,playing those idiot games at facebook,say craps with my twosister,then 6pm go out for cycling.. This that really fun?! I repeat those same things every day... Just has something is better,traveling with family.:] that's all.. that's the worst holiday i ever had! I'm not happy,I'm ALONE! almost stay at home every day! lame! spoil my mood! the weather is bad. I'm pretending that i having fun with my own in front of my friends. actually is not that fun..what can i say? is lonely,I'm dying... meaningless holiday~ but what can i do? who's care?! who's care! Nobody care.. is just feel like i had been dumped! Nobody care my feeling or even ask"how are you?" to me. I wanna find someone to tell something also can't. there's nobody here for me.. there's nobody lend me their shoulder.. I couldn't cry... because i know is not worth.. I know everyone is having their own best friends.. everyone has something to busy for... So,i keep silent... the suffering will disappear soon,right? and I will be okay again,isn't?
sighs... i get sick again~~ I thought i'll be fine,but.....can't fight with those virus~ That's all my little sister's fault..she get sick first... Then she spread the virus to me and another sister... ewww...I hate sore throat,flu and cough... it make me hard to breath and I lost my stamina... Weak...Luckily I'm feel better... and my sister too..we recover... Now...turn my daddy get sick... our virus spread to dad...HAHAHA. too bad...now he just lay on the bed and sleep.. Turn us to take care of him.... haix.... now virus is everywhere... My thailand trip was cancel... cause H1N1 is coming back... my mom worry...so next week we are going to the beach! Langkawi~ yeahh...not bad... so,dad....recover faster...I want go out and playyyy! HAHAHA..
To all my friends,weathers change always..sometimes cold and sometimes hot like HELL! so,take care,my buddies and my dude. drink more water and don't get sick. Love you! xoxo
everyone has a dream,right? the dream i want so far...would you like to know? HAHA. is impossible but i hope it could really become true some day..or tomorrow?:P Alright,guys. Please don't laugh at me..I'm not kidding. it's true. you know what?
I wanna be a Rock Star,and a superhero! Living in dream,doing the things that i wanted. I wanna see my face on the TV one day,with the picture on the cover where my friends could see a different side of me. I know everything is gonna change for me, if it could happen then you will see a different side of me. I won't be waiting for the life to pass ahead of me. So i want to do whatever i wish for and let people to see different side me.
Yes! I'm jealous! I'm f**king jealous! i thought you were different. i thought you were care. you know why i'm jealous?! because I care about you. You think I'm really like to jealous? NO! Just because I care about you! why you don't understand? If I'm not jealous,that's mean i don't care about you anymore. mean you not worth to jealous,you not worth to care. why? your mind just having her! you bored only find me...when you no need me or she doesn't here you only find me? why you don't put your effort in our relationship? is it the best you can do? Grrr.... to be honest with me,are you fooling me? is it just me idiot care about this?! okay! from now on,I won't pick up your phone! I don't want hurt anymore. I don't want waste my time anymore. You not worth for me to do that! You got your secret to share,but i think i'm the last person who know. You always told me that you so sorry about that, but you make this mistake over and over again. now,i don't believe you like previous because you cheat on me. tell me honestly.... how heavy i am in your mind? I've been give you many chances,but all you do is just disappoint me.:'(
what for i go to school? Just sleep and playing monopoly with friends for a whole day? Sitting alone and read books? Ohh~ school suck. This is why i choose to stay at home today... Test paper just ask someone help me keep first..HAHA. result...not the marks that i expect to. sighs..think i can't get the target... wake up early in the morning today... playing facebook..facebook suck too...There's nobody i want to talk to.. And where's my friends are going? none of them here when i need them... Friends suck..what friends really mean? Just tell me! Urgh/// what can i do? seriously,i need some social...need to meet some new and gorgeous friends desperately.. Is saturday tomorrow! Then?hang out with my buddies or stay at home better? Cause i'm not in a good mood recently...:(
what a silence night... what is happening? haix... all i need is just some space... yeah,right. just like now... nobody at home,just me..foong lim in the house at night.. simply think again... think what? what i really need actually? i lost my way sudden... alone..thinking of nonsense stuff? no please...i don't want like that... tomorrow will be better,is it? is saturday...gonna crack my science books! Start to crack tomorrow..i promise! tonight,i don't know what's up... so silence..i off the TV,FB,MSN..just read some story books, listen to the music...and blogging now... why i'm look so miserable? is there anything bothering me? i know,All i need is just fun! if i got this,i won't so depress one.:( faster holiday... i want to leave this town for awhile.. i sick of going to school! some haters is there. i don't want to look her face.i will vomit~ Emo mood turn on: This is what i feel now..
not enough time to sleep again.. feel so blur all day long... almost get scold from canteen's worker because forget to take my balance money when i paid. Tired? i don't know...maybe... Just lay on the table for whole day in the class... there's nobody i want to talk with. maybe i moody...or i don't like to talk today... they got their friends to talk with... so i better take time to sleep when teacher was not teaching... lazy day...people ask me something i just nod..or just said:ohhhh~hmm~ okay~ today cik aggamah caught me yawn in the class.. call me sit on floor and study..== all student were standing behind except me was sitting on the floor.. good too. i extremely tired...i don't want to stand. i rather sit on the dirty floor. after a while,teacher call me to sit back to my place..LOL. Then i yawn again when teacher didn't look at me. Today teacher teaching komsas..poem and so on... it is saying about friends.. Yeah...teacher is right! who would help us in the end? she bet just a few friends would stand for us and fight with us.. I realize of cause. who will care whether you are die or what... I need a true friend,not a fake friend who just fake to supporting me, treat me so good infront of me but say something bad behind me.. And i'm glad because i found a true friend. all friend were betrayed me before. i still remember..just you would stay with me when i had a hard time..honestly, thank you so so much! i still remember that time we were just felt so strange to each other. at the end, we build up a good friendship until now.. i first time saw she defend me.. at the end we chase by her,a fatty! LOL. i also realize that we have the same hobbies.. and we face so many problem together... hey dude... if without you now,i don't know what person i will be... i don't know how to survive without you now... i need you every time...you are everything for me... but....am i everything for you too? we ain't same class now... in your eyes maybe i always with others friend and you will think you are not important for me..in fact not... you are the only one who willing to help me when i ask for help... you are the only one who willing to accompany stay until 6.45pm at school. you are the only one who call me at night and willing to listen my happen. you are the only one who willing to help me find dictionary together.. all the things you do for me i would never forget.. we went many place before...like genting,KL,sitiawan. i still remember we kacau by a so lou in the bus and we don't know why we still can laughing.>< i scare actually... but when i with you... scary things also can be a funny things. And when we are at genting... our room is locked... we so scare in the outside..remember? we saw the door got something and moving non-stop. we ran back to our hotel room..HAHAHA. we can still laugh too. And i remember we first time took bus back my home.. LOL.. we sat at the behind there..so "dan" behind.. we almost jump out from our seat,and we keep on laughing. is was fun! HAHAHA.
you are important in my life,dude. Don't try to leave me,dude. i scare of the day without you accompany me. i need your shoulder when i cry.. i need your care when i sad.. i need your voice when i feel lonely... my life is full of colour when you beside me.. Fun is around me when you are here.. Thanks because you cheer me up all the time.. no one can compare to you in my "position". you are always the first person i thinking of when i have trouble,sad or whatever . aren't you too? am i the first too? i love you,dude.=]
ummm.... give me something interest to do.. is so so so so bored now. SOS! the account project is almost done.. is the front page haven't gam dim yet.. tonight ask daddy pick me to the cc.=] Thursday pass up,then i can concentrate my study. final exam is coming soon..you know? i don't have such the mood to study..but i don't want to see my study fall behind again. I will jealous with someone again if someone get the marks that higher than me. LOL.
I think i need to do some exercise to refresh my brain. wahaha. who can go jogging with me this weekend?who want to go?i need somebody accompany me. wow...recently my family is so addicted on swimming. we almost go stadium every sunday. yeah. is really dirty. the swimming pool is still okay,but the toilet.dirty lo. feeling good to swim with those kiddie. my mom friend's children.hahaha.
what's wrong with me today?! I wa soooo sleepy in the class. curiously enough,i slept whole day yesterday. once i back home at 2pm,i slept until 7pm only woke up... then bath and dinner..nearly 12am midnight i go bed again.. enough time to sleep yesterday. but today why felt so sleep one? i keep on yawning in the class. absent mind too. had a day dream whole day. LOL. maybe i shouldn't sleep over start now.. HAHA. I'm on diet,okay? That's why my family go to swim every sunday. is just because of me. hahaha. At school i eat less also. Just now went and measure my weight. opps! i just lost 1 kg! but at least have lost my weight. HAHA. keep going..i can do it.=]
Today see movie with wei ling at jusco.. so wake up early in the morning and waiting my mom fetch me. i knew she must be late..i told wei ling 10am will arrive her house. but my mom almost 12pm reach there..LOL. Then we go and buy movie ticket..''vampire suck'' OMG. crowded...so many people line up and buy ticket..=.= and i notice that a couple is staring at us.== what's wrong?? LOL. I don't care la. after buy ticket we go to McD eat Mcflurry. hoho. i very long time didn't eat this. yummy! ish..we saw our enemy sitting beside us! aiyer..stick a tattoo on her arm wor~ hate her! talk something about us to her mother. don't think we don't know. sei 8 po! i don't know why my sister is her best friend previous.== time's up! almost 1.30pm we go back to the cinema there and buy popcorn and soda. wow.regular popcorn just like large popcorn. call us how to finish it. There's no small popcorn to sell one. no choice~ we bought the regular popcorn.we go to the cinema room and put our snack to the seat. wei ling cover it with her jacket before we went to the toilet.HAHAHA. scare somebody eat it.AHA~ Movie start. almost teenager watch this movie. walao~ idiot enough.everyone is laughing until the movie end. and we both too..laugh until tears come out. After watch movie we went to sing K~ just we two..syok~~ although just we two in the K room also feel so high. we don't care whether we sing wrongly or what. Just shout and sing. feel so cold in the K room. no jacket also. cold until i can't sing anymore. sudden i waiter come and ask us pay money 1st. Then wei ling sudden said her purse is missing! what?! LOL. luckily it just drop on the floor only.haha. if not we die,i not enough to pay..and the boy ask us what is the song we sing now. then i ans: Give you hell~ then he ans: ohh..i see. LOL. he so cute. 6:30..Mom's calling..i have to back.. wei ling too..but i shopping with my mom awhile when wei ling was back. after that mom go to grandma's house. almost 10pm only back home and take dinner as our supper. Online after dinner and shower..haha. play uno with wei ling in the msn.LOL. i never win.== 2am...go to bed~
Today visit two malay friends' house.. haha..today's fun and cool... visit with my mom and a friend.. food is tasty..not too spicy...love their ketupat and curry. HAHA..of course received green pau too.hehe. i love their malay's decoration..so many old things in the cupboard.. like plate and iron and something.. sudden think of my old best friend,intan nabilah.. so i decided to text her today.. thanks God that she still remember me! i wish her happy hari raya and ask her when have back to ipoh..sooooooo miss her! you know? every year's hari raya i will miss her one,because i visit her house when i was standard 6..her mom keep give me biscuit and food..ask me eat more.. and we played fire cracker too. It was fun,man..miss the moment so. today almost 11pm only back home..tired and full.
tomorrow! say happy birthday to my grandma. all my cousin back from KL because grandma's birthday. wheee~ but have to go tuition after the celebration.. here i wish my grandma's healthy and strong. may God bless you.:)
P.S: Vampire suck and step up 3..cinema,cinema.here i come!
Exam coming...shit lo~still not having such that mood to study... just think of playing and fun... seriously,after came back from penang i feel so ''cheerful''. maybe having a lot of fun at there..laughing none stop...although is just visit temple more than shopping... but really feel so happy when back from penang... look the sea and breath the fresh air... whooo~relax~ :D hmmm...long time didn't have this feeling lu~ Thanks,cousin intro this trip to me.HAHA.
so today i ask wei ling hang out with me for doing revision. tomorrow is exam... wish me wish me~ history!the most noob subject! so today went to Starbucks study... hmm... not really study...i think talk more than study.. HAHAHA. of couse...our topic is unlimited...talking everything..there's no secret between us..:) Then 5:30pm..we pack our things and heading to school.. but i want to go Watson buy some personal things.. walking~~~ wow! is that i didn't go parade very long time? feel so shock,sudden appear a SASA shop..then we go in... always addicted to the mask..bought two pack of mask and wei ling bought 3 pack of wet tissue. hahaha..the sale girl so good..free 2 masks for us..i gave wei ling a mask then... after bought,we run back to school.. LOL...just like a crazy woman run on the road..hahaha. rush time..luckily bus havent come yet.aha~
after back home,mom told me that she gonna sell our old wira car tomorrow..:( huh? so sad...feel tak sanggup hati to sell to another people...coz it with us when we was little. how old i am is the how old to the car...sighs...really ng sek dek... but who said the car always can't start the engine and car door can't open? so we force to sell it..haix~Now house just have a car only... hmmmm.... bye bye,old car...haix~~~~ hope your new master treat you good ba.. hou ng sek dek the 6516 car number .:(
anyway,still have to study harder tonight..start to burn the midnight oil.xD
tell me what should i do... i'm so worry and helpless now... why today sudden happen so many things.. i can't accept it..especially grandma...feel so pity for her... the most worry is grandma now.. if she sudden can't remember anything,forget who i am.. i surely will crying in front of her... i want to go grand mom's house and take care of her this weekend... i know she must be too alone.. just alone in a house everyday..nobody care... grandma fall down when went to the toilet also nobody know that.. sitting in the toilet for whole day and no eating for whole day also nobody know that.. Luckily aunt came to my grand mom's house.. but when she found my grandma... my grandma already lost her memory...:( my uncle ask her question she don't have feeling anymore... she too afraid and sudden lost her memories i think...wuwuwu... luckily few hours ago,grandma can talk to us..better right now... why will sudden like that..i still worrying this now..:( get well soon,grandma..:( hope everything will turn back to the normal.. i sudden lost my mind... out of control and crying in the class... why friends ask me what happen... if they don't ask why,maybe i won't cry... once i cry i can't stop it...recently really feel so down...parent and family problem... mom and dad...don't you can't understand my feeling? i don't want to lost this family... mom....trust dad he won't do this for you anymore... he regret already..please trust him... i don't want have any change between mom and dad...you know? be your daughter is suffering if see this happen and i cannot do anything for you two...:( looking my mom crying because of my dad,i feel so pain in my heart... cannot find the words to describe..:(
Maybe I'm just not good enough for you And maybe I just don't wanna be like you And maybe I just don't wanna know How low you're ready to go I'm not gonna change You can't make me You don't mean anything to me You're what I never wanna be Tell me does it feel good to be like you Tell me why should I waste my time with you 'Cuz maybe you always bring me down I'm sick of being pushed around I'm not gonna change You can't make me You don't mean anything to me You don't mean anything to me You're what I never wanna be I know you think you know me You don't know anything I know you want to help me I don't need anything Don't tell me where to go I don't need you to know You don't mean anything to me You're what I never wanna be!
Sudden got his call last night... HAHA..happy! we didn't meet for so long..miss you,kiddie! Then,we went greentown's kopitiam yumcha. surprise alot...just didn't meet him bout 3 months... he change alot..I completely cannot recognize him... HAHA..honestly,he look very mature...wey tian..you"dai gor zai" lo~ our topic never change...music and DJ Ken...our favorite..hoho... Happy night! Normally saturday is the most bored day.. finally had a lot of fun at night! weee~
I wish i can leave this town for a while, and go somewhere is peace and silence... I'm feeling so lost... stuck inside a world i hate... I'm sick of everyone around, with the big fake smile and stupid lie! You all might think I'm happy, but i'm not gonna be okay!
Take some time to smile when you're sad.. to rest when you're tired.. to love if you're feeling empty.. & to let go if you need to. time endures, time heals. in this life, just take some time for yourself..
Yesterday didn't go school...haha...extremely tired... went parade and buy my personal stuff... GOSH...spend all my cash in my wallet...== so..... bankrupt again....>< sighsssss....next week kena go eat American's lunch with yan may and kar ling... gonna collect money for that... umm..... wonder delicious or not~ Today, parents's day....... so what??take it easy....I'm not so scare actually... just pretend i very scare in front of my friends... haha....because they very scare,so I follow.... LOL.... why i want pretend??== today bring a normal feeling go to school... then saw my friends...and chat chat chat... and play play play... and gossip gossip gossip someone... and laugh laugh laugh until we roll on the floor... krazy~~ yeah....i thought today is greatest for me... I'm freaking hyper-active today.... don't know why... Maybe yesterday i have a good good night...:P thanks someone console me last night.... i'm always feel better after i chat with him... he just like a "trouble-solver" for me... HAHA... But.......... after recess... my mood was change...sudden change u know? I don't know why.... is that my problem? or I'm already bear of you for so long? sorry,man... I'm damn straight... I will straight away tell that person... so i know some of them cannot accept my attitude... SO just leave me... i never place you at my eye level... umm.... so after recess me and my friends went to the hall and see they promote their college and blah blah blah... After me and yan may walk back to class... janice and kar ling haven't back... then me and yan may start to chat again...== i know yan may beh song the person too... I am too! then the person come back and sit with us... I don't know why when she said something,i look like scold back her like that... actually i don't... i want keep my feeling... don't want have a war with her... but is really annoying! I'm out of control! I'm being rude to her... even give her a finger... i know i lampau alotttt... i also not willing to see this happen.. why i'm so bitchy after recess? I didn't mean to hurt her... everyone know she is FAKE... I'm suck of it! so today finally expose!! BOOMMMM~~~ but I really hate she like to pretend and SHOW OFF!!! especially boys! always say rubbish! look your mirror first! said people boy friend yong sui and what! look back you those EX-boy friendsss then! They handsome? They good enough? yours only the worst in this world! before say people can think of your those EX first? u don't malu ke?? I am sure i make a good fight today.:P
i have a lot of thing want to do for tomorrow... haha... happy that is no school tomorrow... i can sleep until the next morning! yup... recently just sleep 5 hours everyday... look at me! pimples! dark circle ! yeah... tomorrow relax.. i can do whatever i desire! watch my favorite drama! gossip girl~ xoxo oh ya ya! i can read finish my story book... HAHA.. put at the table for so long.. dust on the book..xD today is janice's birthday... i make my 1st DIY for her... a birthday card... inside have a cupcake.. haha..no money to buy a big cake for her... and just a little present...xD wish she will like it. AND. I love my life now... I don't hope have some changes.. don't force me to change somethings that i not willing to do so.. sorry.... Life is cruel... HAHAHA! I survive in this earth for myself... not just for you...
sad...that's is...totally sad now... the one who take care of me when i was baby is just passed away... sigh... yesterday night i went and visit her house... the memories came out in my mind... i look her picture...my tears sudden come out.. i know i cannot control myself...my mom ask me wanna see her or not... i want actually...but i scare i cannot control my tears..there's alot of people over there.. so...i didn't see her lastly..haix... i remember i very scare of her when i was little.. .she is fierce..but actually she very sayang us. last night... that is the last i meet her..rest in peace... you're always on my mind.. thanks for guidance when i was little.. thanks for your caring when i was baby.. RIP..
a week already ar... what's wrong with me? i just eat bread,porridge everyday. my mouth is getting bitter and bitter everyday.. so suffer you know? when i only can recover? fever still got alot, seriously sore throat.. serious headache...=='' urgh! i didn't eat rice and meat almost a week.. i'm drink alot of water still cannot get well! going to see the second doctor.. the doctor give me mec again... he said if still din recover or better 2moro.. he suggest me go hospital already... huh?! what?! hospital?! no! i don't want! the doctor said that mec is quite stronger than i ate before.. after i eat it.. i feel whole my body is itchy! i'm allergy on the mec! argh! i never ever like this before! i scare... i so scare...i tell you... my hand...i wanna scratch it also cannot.. will become more and more serious later... now, i stop take mec... gonna wait 2moro and go hospital take blood.. see whether how.. scare see my hand and arm... red red..and itchy.. wuwuwu.... i scare... i scare to look the mirror.. i scare to look myself... no blood colour on my face... lips is colourless..:( i really scare.... i don't want to die so soon.:( bless me... get well soon,foong lim.
You're always so right It's all a big show It's all about you You think you know What everyone needs You always take time to criticize me It seems like everyday I make mistakes I just can't get it right It's like I'm the one you love to hate But not today
So shut up, shut up, shut up Don't wanna hear it Get out, get out, get out Get out of my way Step up, step up, step up You'll never stop me Nothing you say today Is gonna bring me down
There you go You never ask why It's all a big lie Whatever you do You think you're special But I know and I know and I know And we know that you're not You're always there to point Out my mistakes And shove them in my face It's like I'm the one you love to hate But not today
So shut up, shut up, shut up Don't wanna hear it Get out, get out, get out Get out of my way Step up, step up, step up You'll never stop me Nothing you say today Is gonna bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up) Is gonna bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up) You'll never bring me down
Don't tell me who I should be (Don't tell me who I should be) And don't try to tell me what's right for me Don't tell me what I should do I don't wanna waste my time I'll watch you fade away
So shut up, shut up, shut up Don't wanna hear it Get out, get out, get out Get out of my way Step up, step up, step up You'll never stop me Nothing you say today Is gonna bring me down
Shut up, shut up, shut up Don't wanna hear it Get out, get out, get out Get out of my way Step up, step up, step up You'll never stop me Nothing you say is gonna bring me down, Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up) You won't bring me down, Bring me down (Shut up, shut up, shut up) Won't bring me SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP
i really don't know what's wrong with us? i try to get closer to you and get back our friendship. but u seem like don't care about that! what the hell! u good back with her jau dump me. u fu hin me. u don't talk to me at school. u don't look at me when i look at you! always i find you first and talk to you first! u didn't text me or call me. everything is change between me and u. previously we always chat in the phone and text. but i tell you now. i won't do this silly thing anymore! u don't care our friendship at all! why i still want to get back? shit! i didn't expect u just dump me like that. u betray me! u use me to forget your sadness and your loneliness when u argue with her. when all things is come back, u jau dump me! i hate you!bitch!
Friday, May 14, 2010
You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone..
tell you..........warn you..........i won't jealous! xp
i know i'm not born in a rich family as you...
i don't have as many bucks as you in my purse every school day...
i don't have a big house as you...
i don't have a brand new laptop as you too! [but mine one also not bad gah]
or anthing bla,bla,bla..
but....
could you please don't ever show your stuffs to me always!
is very irritating,you know?
sometime you really make me wanna scold you!
but i stand for your attitude,because you're my friends..
i don't want to break our friendship just because of that...
the above that you having,i don't have as much as you...or maybe non of it..
But got one you don't have and i very proud of myself because i had is..God had given me
such a nice Daddy and a very love me de Mommy..btw i love them too.:D
they try to satisfied me what i want to...
they are open minded than your parent...
they allow me what i wish to do....how bout you huh?
i think this is already win you...and that is enough!
the thing you have,it can use bucks to buy for it....
but having a good parent is hard to get...that cannot buy from bucks!
those the things u having right now is not you own-self buy it...
that is your parent's money!you're just depend on them...
ya....
you have many stuff that i don't have now...
but maybe in future....
it can be changed....
i believe.....
so please! stop doing that.nothing you can show off to me at all.XP
Today damn short temper…maybe not enough sleep yesterday…
then at maths lesson cannot tahan ady…just take a nap for 5 minutes only..
WTF..! that teacher,that maths teacher bit me!
Not only one time…bit dou hou song izit wor?
First time she bit my shoulder…pain abit…okay nevermind…
after she walked away I lay on the table awhile lo…what the! She bit me again!!
This time pain lo! The PIAK sound so big…this time pain enough…t
hen I starring at her lo..i said”weiya! What’s up?!pain gah! Ur mother!”
Like that…my tear drop down…I so angry lo…
I hate people disturbing me sleep especially I’m very very exhausted!
Then lay down dun want let ppl saw my tears…
that sei teacher call me wake up and continue do homework wor…
I ignore her…continue lay down and take this chance sleep…
still very pain my arm…don’t touch my body you bloody…
Janice know my flu come out…she give me tissue…
thank you friend…after nothing ady…mood become stable ady…
then I wake up…eh…yesterday give two teacher scolded,Today give teacher bit…enough?
Me and Janice…pity…
Okay…then after school got stay…just until 3pm only…
Janice wanna go meet david..her kai gor…
then mai accompany her go…she said if me din go…she dun want go too…
janice said maybe today is the last meet…
coz he want go Australia study…meet him at kopitiam….
he come ady…then sit…we keep laughing don’t know why…after order things drinks…so hot today…hoho…nothing can talk to him…we talk our stuff then…haha… after awhile,yan may’s cousin come liao luckily…then they two talk talk talk…we 3 talk talk talk…he treat us…before back we thanks him…then we acc yan may buy that broadband…Janice and me go popular buy file...
My mom call me…opps…gonna back home…after paid money then walk to digi there find yan may…take back my books…back home……..=)
Today the first thing I do when I came back from school is sleep…tired until didn’t take lunch today…sleep until 7pm…get up and bath…then take dinner at grandma’s house…I don’t know today why all so silence…less talk..all so moody like that…I know I was too…today not really wanna smile…keep silence…moody I scolded Janice suddenly during push up…I am sorry…I having a bad mood recently…today oral English…puan.Mavis praise us doing very well…our group din get scold…hope we can get the highest mark in class…=)
After pj no teacher…all play in the class…except us this gang….sleeping over there…what a bad day today….tak syok today…din stay today…but I think they got…but they didn’t tell me…is alright…whatever…~ I already don’t care anything…I am tired…just go ahead whatever they want to do, whatever they want to say…I don’t care anymore…at least I already explain and tell them that I don’t want lost them…at least I already do what I suppose to do already…if they appreciated my word…they will come back one day…otherwise they want to forget this friendship…I can do nothing…I want to close wif them but they seem like didn’t sou me like that…I’m ady tired for everything…just let the god help me settle everything…I really don’t know what’s wrong with us…sigh…just like previously how good…I wish u all step forward to my life…having fun together…my life is meaningless without you all…just you can lead me your arm and I can cry loudly without feeling shame…just you can listen my sum shi…just you can give me real fun…just you can make me smile when I really don’t want to smile…I need you at the time…don’t you know that? Do you?
today gonna go ah jie's tuition..accounts lesson...T.T hard to catch up..getting more complicated le.. haix..now i can imagine my future way is HOPELESS.. why??why??why??! so difficult meh?or i'm noob?== give me the answer,man.
so me early early jau wake up ler..waiting for my dearest yan may come my house and take breakfast together,then only go tuition together..xD finally she arrive...then my mom fetch us near the tuition center there de kopitiam.. dump us eat breakfast at there. Oh shit! is late! gonna be punish if late come..so we fast fast eat.. hoho..coffee again..LOVELY^^
After finish..we fast fast go up..cheh..== ah jie havent come in..luckily.. yeah..after she come in la.and i concentrate the lesson of cause..today tt 4 hours leh. tired lo~ but after tuition we go parade take a break..HAHA..sure forgot everything what we learn in tt after go parade... LOL..yan may said she feel dizzy and sleepy because of the coffee..== huh?ng hai gua??>< definitely won`t..i'm bursting at seam leh. but after awhile..my study spirit is gone.. getting bored and bored. today ah jie keep hit a boy,u know?so funny la..the boy so pity..HAHA..
...finally class dismiss lu!! yeah bi! then we call taxi.. the boy was hit by ah jie and his friends also call taxi wey.. i think they also go parade de la.. i'm right.. we saw them at parade..LOL... both of us saw each other very shock..HAHA.. yan may tell me the boy freaking lengzai wor.. haha..i said go and kao him la then.. lalala... ya..i admit the boy is damn lengzai too..=) yan may today really fatt hao ni..shhhhh~ just joking la.. she ask me when the guy tuition on which day.. hey man.. how come u ask me.. i duno him one la k.. hoho...for sure yan may is fall in love wif him de... she said nex time try try everyday tuition n meet guy.. next time only suan ba~
today i'm FUCKINGangry when i take our lunch in sushi king! we walk in....find place to sit..waa..saw dou michelle ding..our ex senior at sch...=) okay...we find find find... yeah..got it..find dou a nice feng shui's place.. i sit....i turn right my head..notice that a girl with her friends staring at us! she just at our opposite!! what the hell! halo! just you FUCKER can go sushi king eat ar?!!! she look at us on our head until our kaki!!! u know!! i hate those people look at me like that!! i know u think yourself is pretty than me!!! but i don't think so u were pretty!!! excuse me!! who wear skirt and put alot of blush or make up or whatever also will be pretty la!auntie!!! cannot wear t-shirt and jeans go to sushi king meh now?!!got this rules ar?! then why u staring at us for so long huh?!!! urgh!!!! or you think we not cash to pay??!!LOL!!! don't think u were pretty!you're not! you're cheap! looking at us wif your fatt hao face! i'm really beh song YOU! spoil my selera!! no mood to eat anymore when i first saw u!!sau pei la!!!
PS: i'm sorry for my word is too rude..but i really very angry!!
today wake up early... coz gonna make breakfast for myself and my sister..prepare many many things.... how pity i am that my parents is out station this few days... wake up for myself..take breakfast for myself..everythings all is prepare by me! but good too..so freeeee at home...nobody nagging me..wakaka! xD so today my sister and i fetch to stadium by my relative.. i'm keep in touch wif zi hui..coz she early arrived there...
walao~traffic jam... but finally arrive... we waiting for wei ling and yanmay come at the ball ball there..HAHA！ thn i go find janice coz she want me help to carry her bag..she going marching..LOL..green ribboon,green skirt and whatever... help her carry...so k yeng..coz both of us same bag..then i call kar ling help me carry..haha...
damn bored when that is just started...= = after okay abit la... poor my blue house! last year get 2nd... this year get 4nd... so bad~~~ purple house very geng... last year last but this year 2nd jor... LOL... blue house next year add oil ya...
our class also have run competation... we get 2nd... YEAH!!! WEEEE~~~^^ OMG!! the toilet never change!! still very busuk! the most busuk toilet in this world! want go oh sh sh also cannot..ish! very very hot today..rather dun go..= -=
after sport...waiting janice and ah boon come and find me and go jusco.. weeeee~~~ happy happy ya! we take lunch in johnny's... eat steamboat..hehe.. janice said she never eat steamboat wif friends before... yiii...the waiter at there very weird.. keep wanna chat wif us...aiyo..go work la man... there not so expensive la..tasty alot^^ especially TOM YAM SOUP. capture each other..bwahaha!
after lunch fast fast go capcom play..we also rush time.. all early wanna back..especially me...i just curi curi go jusco today..shhhh~~ we take da tou tie...chesseeeeee~~~ damn funny la..haha... happy so much... we throw basketball..aiyo..banyak orang leh..btw we noob noob de..not pro.. but the record still okay..144+++marks.. janice's mother came ady..then janice back..haiz...ng sek dek ar..play dou very high jau back... hoho.. we go change token again.. turn me and ah boon throw basketball...^^ throw dou ng xiong balik jor..but still had to back..sigh... i think this is the first time we hang out together lo.. everytime also have some trouble then cannot go.. but finally today success^^ our wish come trueee...yeah~ althought just a few hour.. but we got alot memory about three of us.. hehe...
I take taxi back home.. so scare... his look very yam..>< the driver...oh my god...= = very talkative... he really talk alot..bla bla bla..none STOP.. bla bla bla until i reach home he still bla bla bla with me.. 55...T.T cannot bear in it... damn expensive take taxi.. rm15 from jusco to 1st garden.. i'm spend alot of money todayy... bankrupt lo~~~ help............
