Single VS In relationship

I were building the castle in the air at school for a whole day again.

I were sketching my BM work book again.

Why I like to draw those emo kid when I feel moody?

Honestly...I just can draw it out when feeling super moody.

draw and writing my own emo quotes. Its so nice! show off here next time! HAHAHA.

I lay my head on my desk and cover my head with my books~

LOL. I dragged myself to sleep. But I failed.

I don't know what I'm doing...When friends talking to me,I just"huh?",

"what did you say just now?"

And my friends just feel so annoying and ignored me.

AHAHA. Don't talk to me early in the morning,dude.

I haven't wake up completely,i think.

I were blur early in the morning. So,better don't talk to me.

My spirit is still on the bed. :)

ARGHHHHH!! Not again you break up with your guy?!

Why your relationship so complicated?!

This is not the first time you both wanna break up..

wanna break up then faster please.

Guy like you don't deserve my BFF!

You should feel lucky because my BFF is so in love with you.

Who the freak you are? wanna break up,and then wanna get back

together again! Don't waste my BFF's time!

She obviously deserve a better guy,and it's definitely ain't you,bull shit~

You don't respect my BFF's feeling at all.

You don't give her sleeping and just wanna keep on texting with you!

Don't you feel tired? You don't need space at all?

You are a playboy. I don't know why my BFF will fall in love you..

umm...Maybe...Love is blind,right?

So,for those girls who are single should proud of being single.

SINGLE,SO WHAT?!

We have more fun than them,isn't it?

HAHAHA. Just like me.:)

Hang out without BF bothering you.

No need keep holding the cellphone and waiting someone's text! It's suck.

No need to bother how we behave like...It's cool to be yourself.:)

And,Surely lost your freedom ,especially you met the guy like my BFF's boyfriend.

OH GOSH!

I just feel so pity for her. If i were her,I become insane~

HAHA.

Of cause,I'm not encourage people to be single la. search for the right one.

Don't get into a relationship so easily. You will suffer like hell.

And pick the right one of course. (my BFF sure had pick the wrong one.)

we're just waiting for someone who worth to suffer.

Get into a relationship shoulda feel upset like my BFF was.

So,why don't we move on? temporary being a single is nothing,right?

Search for the right one again!

We're NOT survive and live for our boyfriend.

we live for ourselves...not for someone!

So,wake up,buddy!

You really deserve a gorgeous one! Move on! Move on!

CRAP~

Oh my mother.

I want to stop the bet.

I can't focus at all. I'm sorry for being such a useless daughter.

27 days to go....

what the hell am i doing??!

what the hell i'm thinking??

I need someone to inspire me. Let me have the spirit to study please~

I try to force myself to skip my nap time.

But i can't. I always overslept. sighsss..

Just slap me when I sleeping in the class,janice. need your help.

HAHAHA!

well, I'm done.

Accept the truth....

I'M LAZY!

I'M USELESS!

GOOD FOR NOTHING!

IMMA FAILURE! ! :(

After surgery/feel thankful so much

Finally...I was discharge and went home.

Today I've got a call from hospital.

I was shock! I thought what had happen.LOL.

The nurse who that take care of me in the hospital called me.

Asking me how I feel and got vomit and eat medicine or not?

She call me take care of the wound and dont get it wet.

Thanks to her so much!

what can i say?

Getting painful every single day.:'(

even take antibiotic.

hmm. why?:'( force myself to sleep when it painful.

wondering when i can recover..

It suffer after surgery...

cannot eat so many things.

Today is my daddy's birthday,we decided to eat dessert at the shop we usually go.

There got cheese cake,chocolate cheese. everything is made up of cheese!

Mom told me I could eat..:'( why?!! THAT's my fav cheese!!

You know i always crazy about it..

sighsss...

And i was suffering when going to bath.

cannot make it wet and scare it will have infection.:'(

gosh! cannot wash my hair often also.

I cannot bear of my oily hair!

Well,is okay right?

I had experience how to take care after surgery.><

Hope I can faster move and turn my neck freely.

Hope the wound heal faster and i won't get a scar.

waiting for the report,hope it is no big deal.

God please bless me on this saturday..Love you.

I'm sorry that I bring this problem to my family.

I make them worry me. But please don't. I will feel so sorry.

Anyway,thanks to my friends who concern me,comfort me,

visit me and call me.

I feel better now. don't worry.:]

And most important,

Thanks to my buddy,shi hui.who keep my homework and helping me

the malay's oral. I was completely forget! Thanks for everything you did,shi hui.

I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA.

Lastly,hope the one who kena javelin recover faster and

please let his scar disappear faster.[ hey,try to apply Bio-oil on your

wound. I apply this too. XD ] Hope his scar gone soon and return to

his normal face ASAP. Anyway,even though how he look like,he still the lovely brother!XD

The one i used to know...:]

I'm cried out when on the way to hospital.

Finally went to hospital and see specialist on neck's doctor.

I was wondering many times what doctor would tell me.

Is it has to do operation?

Is it had to stay at hospital?

Do i recover?? Or is it cancer?

what the things on my neck actually?

I'm suffer for a whole week. swollen at neck there and very pain.

I figure out there have other swallow thing on other side.

That's why I scare. my mom as well. so today I skip school and my mom

off work and bring to see specialist...

The feeling i went to there wasn't that good.

I rather dont want know the result,because i scare have to do operation.:(

I'm scare that is cancer too.

I don't want to know this.

I hope it won't my mother's friend daughter case.

She also has something swollen on her neck.

when she went to see doctor. the doctor told her that she got cancer.

haixxx.

God please~

when i walk into the room and see doctor.

I was almost cried out infront of the doctor.:(

Now,the doctor just told me take medicine and see whether is getting

better or not....

If it isn't...Then have to come back again..do x-ray or blood test,because

he found another things on my neck. but if it not become bigger then i dont have to worry..

haixxx...

Hope the medicine can cure the swollen things on my neck now.

if not...I don't want to do operation and see what i got inside!

and...my dearest friends. Thanks for your blessing. I guess i will recover soon.

now nothing i can do.. just take medicine and rest more only.

virus please go away! Do not disturb me anymore!

feel so lost...:(

What if last night i begging you stay?

what if last night I didn't text you?

what if last night I didn't pick up your phone?

I think we won't had this chance to tell each other.

Remember this day,precious day we had! xD

What are you thinking? why you don't tell me anything?

Is hard to figure out what you thinking.

I'm tired of this.:(

so complicated~ such a tired game.

You know what? I miss you!

Why it won't become truth? Why I always screw up everything?!

Sudden hate myself! I hate myself. I don't have gut to tell you.

you too. What are we waiting for actually? idk.

why we scare to tell the truth? just fine. I don't give a damn.

Today......~

what a pretty little Tuesday I have!

No school. I can wake up late or don't sleep at night!

but worst thing is tomorrow gotta go school..SUCk!

Who the hell love to go school? if she was,then she must

telling the lie!

Someone told me that she gonna gimme present tmr. AHAHA. valentine day was gone.

You're late,dude.

Another secret admire? LOL. guess who? xD I can't wait!

Yesterday blueberry cheese cake accompany me celebrate valentine day.

But also,I had yumcha with friends yesterday and received two chocolates. LOL.

ish. Stay at home better! couple everywhere! And my best friend's bf make

my best friend sad! Damn you! what boy friend is that?!

Don't ever ever let me see your face! You're made my buddy cry yesterday!

For me, IS AWESOME TO BEING SINGLE!xD

no need to bother everything. like a crazy woman laughing or laugh

until roll on the floor also nevermind.xD

We just need some fun! Like my friend say. HAHA.

We prefer this.:D

wtf? Sudden feel myself getting brainless already.

and lazier and lazier. I don't know what i've done at school.

Just like a stupid sitting in the class and looking at teacher

teaching. But MY MIND GO DEAD. My mind went dead at all.

Looking at her like so serious,but my mind was actually went dead!

So...I'm getting stupid now. My buddies busy to catch up the homework now,

but I'm care nothing. still fooling around~ Grr!

what are you thinking,CHANG FOONG LIM?!

Do you really wanna destroy your life by your own just like that?!

I know I'll regret for sure!

When I will awake?! I have no time! If i still like that,

I'm sure i hard to catch up anymore.

Do I really want to see this happen?

No wayyyy.. Is time to pinch myself and call myself awake!

kill the laziness and time to strive for what I really want to!

I promise!

wish i can go back to december.

Reopen school one week already.
I went to school a week.
why I still seems so blur? Don't know what's going on..Don't know what
teacher talking about? Why sudden become so stupid?><
I need Brand chicken essence! Make me concentrate more.
I feel so sleepy everyday...
Why sudden feel so strange about this school??
why feel so weird to go school??
something's wrong here but i can't figure out what's different~
what the hell?!
I haven't get my text books yet! I went to school a week already,man.
School dont have extra text books meh?!
I can't do my homework without text books and can't reading english novel!
If the ex-form 5 student dont want return the book or maybe she return the book
in next year,then i no need take my text books anymore huh?!
wtf. why those librarians so STUPID?! call me wait wait wait! wait your mother.
I gonna punch you i tell you,fatty. You ruin my schedule this week!
I can't do my homework this week.
I feel so unsafe because i don't have one single text books in my bag.
I bring NONE to school.
Work books also taken already. Where's my text books? give back to me~
Fine~ I wait for it until Monday.:s

[Taylor swift-Back to December]
Yeah. can i back to december please?
Life's change sudden. I'm use to having fun in december.
I'm like a happy girl in this world.
But after december gone,January arrived.
I'm change a lot.. it was fun when i first day went to school.
chit chat and said Hi and hug long long with my old friends.
everything's perfect!
But after the 1st day..I felt I'm not that happy like last year.
I didn't talk too much,I don't eat things when recess. I ate a lot in last year,you know?==
Can anyone tell me why?
Is just like I'm stuck in a life that i didn't ask for..:'(
I wish i can go back again.
i know i couldn't look back,life must go on...i know.
2010 went so fasttt..My form 4 life ends like that. I don't want.
You know what? I still can't forget I'm 16. Yesterday a freak
came and chat with me. I still said i'm 16! i'm 17 right now.
17 17 17~ seem so old like that.
I could believe I'm a senior in school, hard to believe I have to face
SPM this year. I still fooling around everyday.
is time to change? change to be more mature?
sighsss. One more year for Teenage life..
I don't want grow up. I want always beside daddy and mom all the time.
I don't want grow up! I don't wanna change,I just wanna have fun!
I'd like everything right now.
stay up late,spend hours on the phone,pressing phone all the time,play video
games until 3am,hang out with
friends and never being at home. I like my attitude problem.
I'm impolite,I'm rude,I'm immature but i will stay like this til the day i die.
I won't change anything,so you better give up. don't ever change me..cause
that's me,chang foong lim.
let it grow naturally.:] I'm happy to be myself.:]