Single VS In relationship

I were building the castle in the air at school for a whole day again.

I were sketching my BM work book again.

Why I like to draw those emo kid when I feel moody?

Honestly...I just can draw it out when feeling super moody.

draw and writing my own emo quotes. Its so nice! show off here next time! HAHAHA.

I lay my head on my desk and cover my head with my books~

LOL. I dragged myself to sleep. But I failed.

I don't know what I'm doing...When friends talking to me,I just"huh?",

"what did you say just now?"

And my friends just feel so annoying and ignored me.

AHAHA. Don't talk to me early in the morning,dude.

I haven't wake up completely,i think.

I were blur early in the morning. So,better don't talk to me.

My spirit is still on the bed. :)

ARGHHHHH!! Not again you break up with your guy?!

Why your relationship so complicated?!

This is not the first time you both wanna break up..

wanna break up then faster please.

Guy like you don't deserve my BFF!

You should feel lucky because my BFF is so in love with you.

Who the freak you are? wanna break up,and then wanna get back

together again! Don't waste my BFF's time!

She obviously deserve a better guy,and it's definitely ain't you,bull shit~

You don't respect my BFF's feeling at all.

You don't give her sleeping and just wanna keep on texting with you!

Don't you feel tired? You don't need space at all?

You are a playboy. I don't know why my BFF will fall in love you..

umm...Maybe...Love is blind,right?

So,for those girls who are single should proud of being single.

SINGLE,SO WHAT?!

We have more fun than them,isn't it?

HAHAHA. Just like me.:)

Hang out without BF bothering you.

No need keep holding the cellphone and waiting someone's text! It's suck.

No need to bother how we behave like...It's cool to be yourself.:)

And,Surely lost your freedom ,especially you met the guy like my BFF's boyfriend.

OH GOSH!

I just feel so pity for her. If i were her,I become insane~

HAHA.

Of cause,I'm not encourage people to be single la. search for the right one.

Don't get into a relationship so easily. You will suffer like hell.

And pick the right one of course. (my BFF sure had pick the wrong one.)

we're just waiting for someone who worth to suffer.

Get into a relationship shoulda feel upset like my BFF was.

So,why don't we move on? temporary being a single is nothing,right?

Search for the right one again!

We're NOT survive and live for our boyfriend.

we live for ourselves...not for someone!

So,wake up,buddy!

You really deserve a gorgeous one! Move on! Move on!

CRAP~

Oh my mother.

I want to stop the bet.

I can't focus at all. I'm sorry for being such a useless daughter.

27 days to go....

what the hell am i doing??!

what the hell i'm thinking??

I need someone to inspire me. Let me have the spirit to study please~

I try to force myself to skip my nap time.

But i can't. I always overslept. sighsss..

Just slap me when I sleeping in the class,janice. need your help.

HAHAHA!

well, I'm done.

Accept the truth....

I'M LAZY!

I'M USELESS!

GOOD FOR NOTHING!

IMMA FAILURE! ! :(

After surgery/feel thankful so much

Finally...I was discharge and went home.

Today I've got a call from hospital.

I was shock! I thought what had happen.LOL.

The nurse who that take care of me in the hospital called me.

Asking me how I feel and got vomit and eat medicine or not?

She call me take care of the wound and dont get it wet.

Thanks to her so much!

what can i say?

Getting painful every single day.:'(

even take antibiotic.

hmm. why?:'( force myself to sleep when it painful.

wondering when i can recover..

It suffer after surgery...

cannot eat so many things.

Today is my daddy's birthday,we decided to eat dessert at the shop we usually go.

There got cheese cake,chocolate cheese. everything is made up of cheese!

Mom told me I could eat..:'( why?!! THAT's my fav cheese!!

You know i always crazy about it..

sighsss...

And i was suffering when going to bath.

cannot make it wet and scare it will have infection.:'(

gosh! cannot wash my hair often also.

I cannot bear of my oily hair!

Well,is okay right?

I had experience how to take care after surgery.><

Hope I can faster move and turn my neck freely.

Hope the wound heal faster and i won't get a scar.

waiting for the report,hope it is no big deal.

God please bless me on this saturday..Love you.

I'm sorry that I bring this problem to my family.

I make them worry me. But please don't. I will feel so sorry.

Anyway,thanks to my friends who concern me,comfort me,

visit me and call me.

I feel better now. don't worry.:]

And most important,

Thanks to my buddy,shi hui.who keep my homework and helping me

the malay's oral. I was completely forget! Thanks for everything you did,shi hui.

I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA.

Lastly,hope the one who kena javelin recover faster and

please let his scar disappear faster.[ hey,try to apply Bio-oil on your

wound. I apply this too. XD ] Hope his scar gone soon and return to

his normal face ASAP. Anyway,even though how he look like,he still the lovely brother!XD

The one i used to know...:]

I'm cried out when on the way to hospital.

Finally went to hospital and see specialist on neck's doctor.

I was wondering many times what doctor would tell me.

Is it has to do operation?

Is it had to stay at hospital?

Do i recover?? Or is it cancer?

what the things on my neck actually?

I'm suffer for a whole week. swollen at neck there and very pain.

I figure out there have other swallow thing on other side.

That's why I scare. my mom as well. so today I skip school and my mom

off work and bring to see specialist...

The feeling i went to there wasn't that good.

I rather dont want know the result,because i scare have to do operation.:(

I'm scare that is cancer too.

I don't want to know this.

I hope it won't my mother's friend daughter case.

She also has something swollen on her neck.

when she went to see doctor. the doctor told her that she got cancer.

haixxx.

God please~

when i walk into the room and see doctor.

I was almost cried out infront of the doctor.:(

Now,the doctor just told me take medicine and see whether is getting

better or not....

If it isn't...Then have to come back again..do x-ray or blood test,because

he found another things on my neck. but if it not become bigger then i dont have to worry..

haixxx...

Hope the medicine can cure the swollen things on my neck now.

if not...I don't want to do operation and see what i got inside!

and...my dearest friends. Thanks for your blessing. I guess i will recover soon.

now nothing i can do.. just take medicine and rest more only.

virus please go away! Do not disturb me anymore!

feel so lost...:(

What if last night i begging you stay?

what if last night I didn't text you?

what if last night I didn't pick up your phone?

I think we won't had this chance to tell each other.

Remember this day,precious day we had! xD

What are you thinking? why you don't tell me anything?

Is hard to figure out what you thinking.

I'm tired of this.:(

so complicated~ such a tired game.

You know what? I miss you!

Why it won't become truth? Why I always screw up everything?!

Sudden hate myself! I hate myself. I don't have gut to tell you.

you too. What are we waiting for actually? idk.

why we scare to tell the truth? just fine. I don't give a damn.

Today......~

what a pretty little Tuesday I have!

No school. I can wake up late or don't sleep at night!

but worst thing is tomorrow gotta go school..SUCk!

Who the hell love to go school? if she was,then she must

telling the lie!

Someone told me that she gonna gimme present tmr. AHAHA. valentine day was gone.

You're late,dude.

Another secret admire? LOL. guess who? xD I can't wait!

Yesterday blueberry cheese cake accompany me celebrate valentine day.

But also,I had yumcha with friends yesterday and received two chocolates. LOL.

ish. Stay at home better! couple everywhere! And my best friend's bf make

my best friend sad! Damn you! what boy friend is that?!

Don't ever ever let me see your face! You're made my buddy cry yesterday!

For me, IS AWESOME TO BEING SINGLE!xD

no need to bother everything. like a crazy woman laughing or laugh

until roll on the floor also nevermind.xD

We just need some fun! Like my friend say. HAHA.

We prefer this.:D

wtf? Sudden feel myself getting brainless already.

and lazier and lazier. I don't know what i've done at school.

Just like a stupid sitting in the class and looking at teacher

teaching. But MY MIND GO DEAD. My mind went dead at all.

Looking at her like so serious,but my mind was actually went dead!

So...I'm getting stupid now. My buddies busy to catch up the homework now,

but I'm care nothing. still fooling around~ Grr!

what are you thinking,CHANG FOONG LIM?!

Do you really wanna destroy your life by your own just like that?!

I know I'll regret for sure!

When I will awake?! I have no time! If i still like that,

I'm sure i hard to catch up anymore.

Do I really want to see this happen?

No wayyyy.. Is time to pinch myself and call myself awake!

kill the laziness and time to strive for what I really want to!

I promise!

wish i can go back to december.

Reopen school one week already.
I went to school a week.
why I still seems so blur? Don't know what's going on..Don't know what
teacher talking about? Why sudden become so stupid?><
I need Brand chicken essence! Make me concentrate more.
I feel so sleepy everyday...
Why sudden feel so strange about this school??
why feel so weird to go school??
something's wrong here but i can't figure out what's different~
what the hell?!
I haven't get my text books yet! I went to school a week already,man.
School dont have extra text books meh?!
I can't do my homework without text books and can't reading english novel!
If the ex-form 5 student dont want return the book or maybe she return the book
in next year,then i no need take my text books anymore huh?!
wtf. why those librarians so STUPID?! call me wait wait wait! wait your mother.
I gonna punch you i tell you,fatty. You ruin my schedule this week!
I can't do my homework this week.
I feel so unsafe because i don't have one single text books in my bag.
I bring NONE to school.
Work books also taken already. Where's my text books? give back to me~
Fine~ I wait for it until Monday.:s

[Taylor swift-Back to December]
Yeah. can i back to december please?
Life's change sudden. I'm use to having fun in december.
I'm like a happy girl in this world.
But after december gone,January arrived.
I'm change a lot.. it was fun when i first day went to school.
chit chat and said Hi and hug long long with my old friends.
everything's perfect!
But after the 1st day..I felt I'm not that happy like last year.
I didn't talk too much,I don't eat things when recess. I ate a lot in last year,you know?==
Can anyone tell me why?
Is just like I'm stuck in a life that i didn't ask for..:'(
I wish i can go back again.
i know i couldn't look back,life must go on...i know.
2010 went so fasttt..My form 4 life ends like that. I don't want.
You know what? I still can't forget I'm 16. Yesterday a freak
came and chat with me. I still said i'm 16! i'm 17 right now.
17 17 17~ seem so old like that.
I could believe I'm a senior in school, hard to believe I have to face
SPM this year. I still fooling around everyday.
is time to change? change to be more mature?
sighsss. One more year for Teenage life..
I don't want grow up. I want always beside daddy and mom all the time.
I don't want grow up! I don't wanna change,I just wanna have fun!
I'd like everything right now.
stay up late,spend hours on the phone,pressing phone all the time,play video
games until 3am,hang out with
friends and never being at home. I like my attitude problem.
I'm impolite,I'm rude,I'm immature but i will stay like this til the day i die.
I won't change anything,so you better give up. don't ever change me..cause
that's me,chang foong lim.
let it grow naturally.:] I'm happy to be myself.:]

No facebook.:(

oh my Gosh! My auntie's house can't on facebook. too bad.
i didn't online for 4 days already.
I miss my facebook abit.
My cafe world~ My dishes ar~
hmm..yesterday mom and dad back to ipoh already.
Now just left grandmum,sister and me.
bored..couldn't on facebook. Luckily still can blogging. HAHA.
but i rather on facebook 1st.
cause got alot of friends requests.
oh! outside this condo got cyber cafe.
wanna go out and play..but i scare..very strange.><

here KL wey..not ipoh. feel so strange.

yesterday shopping at mid valley..

we almost lost our way when went to there.

Luckily we reach our destination finally..

having a fun day with my faily..

we bought a lot of things..

there's many sales.xD

hmm..besides shopping,I want skating too! sunway~ i must go there.

So,hope my buddies coming here soon. Then i can skating with them.

whee~ can't wait for it!♥

A pain that i couldn't tell.

Looking the view outside...
is raining...
My heart like raining too...feeling down and moody..
rain every day...when the sunshine will appear?
is not like in the holiday mood..no sunshine...
every day is cold..make me lazy and make me wanna sleep..
Holiday mood is gone..didn't go genting,didn't go thailand..
just go to KL..GRR...just KL..too bad...
and just tuition every week...
That's not the holiday that i wish for..
wake up at 2pm,facing the laptop and play those stupid games until 7pm?
then bath,eat,pps-ing?
I can count with my fingers,how many times i had hang out with my buddies
this holiday...is suck!
That's why i said in facebook's status:"everyone had their fun,
and i have my fun too."
i am? is not that fun! without friends!
some of them working this holiday,some of them camping,some of them dumping me,
some of them missing in this earth!
alright,I have my fun too!
I having my fun to read books,magazine,watching pps,online,playing those idiot games at facebook,say craps with my twosister,then 6pm go out for cycling..
This that really fun?!
I repeat those same things every day...
Just has something is better,traveling with family.:]
that's all..
that's the worst holiday i ever had!
I'm not happy,I'm ALONE!
almost stay at home every day!
lame! spoil my mood! the weather is bad.
I'm pretending that i having fun with my own in front of my friends.
actually is not that fun..what can i say? is lonely,I'm dying...
meaningless holiday~
but what can i do?
who's care?! who's care!
Nobody care..
is just feel like i had been dumped!
Nobody care my feeling or even ask"how are you?" to me.
I wanna find someone to tell something also can't.
there's nobody here for me..
there's nobody lend me their shoulder..
I couldn't cry...
because i know is not worth..
I know everyone is having their own best friends..
everyone has something to busy for...
So,i keep silent...
the suffering will disappear soon,right?
and I will be okay again,isn't?

virus everywhere.

sighs...
i get sick again~~
I thought i'll be fine,but.....can't fight with those virus~
That's all my little sister's fault..she get sick first...
Then she spread the virus to me and another sister...
ewww...I hate sore throat,flu and cough...
it make me hard to breath and I lost my stamina...
Weak...Luckily I'm feel better...
and my sister too..we recover...
Now...turn my daddy get sick...
our virus spread to dad...HAHAHA.
too bad...now he just lay on the bed and sleep..
Turn us to take care of him....
haix....
now virus is everywhere...
My thailand trip was cancel...
cause H1N1 is coming back...
my mom worry...so next week we are going to the beach!
Langkawi~ yeahh...not bad...
so,dad....recover faster...I want go out and playyyy!
HAHAHA..

To all my friends,weathers change always..sometimes cold and sometimes hot
like HELL! so,take care,my buddies and my dude. drink more water and don't get sick.
Love you! xoxo

Meaningful.(=

Giving Up Doesn't Always Mean You Are Weak.

Sometimes It Means That You Are Strong Enough To Let Go.

A different side of me

everyone has a dream,right?
the dream i want so far...would you like to know? HAHA.
is impossible but i hope it could really become true some day..or tomorrow?:P
Alright,guys. Please don't laugh at me..I'm not kidding. it's true.
you know what?

I wanna be a Rock Star,and a superhero!
Living in dream,doing the things that i wanted.
I wanna see my face on the TV one day,with the picture on the cover
where my friends could see a different side of me.
I know everything is gonna change for me,
if it could happen then you will see a different side of me.
I won't be waiting for the life to pass ahead of me.
So i want to do whatever i wish for and let people to see different side me.

I'm jealous!

Yes! I'm jealous! I'm f**king jealous!
i thought you were different. i thought you were care.
you know why i'm jealous?! because I care about you.
You think I'm really like to jealous? NO!
Just because I care about you!
why you don't understand?
If I'm not jealous,that's mean i don't care about you anymore.
mean you not worth to jealous,you not worth to care.
why? your mind just having her!
you bored only find me...when you no need me or she doesn't here you
only find me? why you don't put your effort in our relationship?
is it the best you can do?
Grrr....
to be honest with me,are you fooling me?
is it just me idiot care about this?!
okay! from now on,I won't pick up your phone! I don't want hurt anymore.
I don't want waste my time anymore. You not worth for me to do that!
You got your secret to share,but i think i'm the last person who know.
You always told me that you so sorry about that,
but you make this mistake over and over again.
now,i don't believe you like previous because you cheat on me.
tell me honestly....
how heavy i am in your mind?
I've been give you many chances,but all you do is just disappoint me.:'(

School suck.

what for i go to school?
Just sleep and playing monopoly with friends for a whole day?
Sitting alone and read books? Ohh~ school suck.
This is why i choose to stay at home today...
Test paper just ask someone help me keep first..HAHA.
result...not the marks that i expect to.
sighs..think i can't get the target...
wake up early in the morning today...
playing facebook..facebook suck too...There's nobody i want to talk to..
And where's my friends are going? none of them here when i need them...
Friends suck..what friends really mean? Just tell me!
Urgh///
what can i do? seriously,i need some social...need to meet some new and gorgeous friends
desperately..
Is saturday tomorrow! Then?hang out with my buddies or stay at home better?
Cause i'm not in a good mood recently...:(

Silence Night

what a silence night...
what is happening? haix...
all i need is just some space...
yeah,right. just like now...
nobody at home,just me..foong lim in the house at night..
simply think again...
think what? what i really need actually?
i lost my way sudden...
alone..thinking of nonsense stuff?
no please...i don't want like that...
tomorrow will be better,is it?
is saturday...gonna crack my science books!
Start to crack tomorrow..i promise!
tonight,i don't know what's up...
so silence..i off the TV,FB,MSN..just read some story books,
listen to the music...and blogging now...
why i'm look so miserable?
is there anything bothering me?
i know,All i need is just fun!
if i got this,i won't so depress one.:(
faster holiday...
i want to leave this town for awhile..
i sick of going to school! some haters is there.
i don't want to look her face.i will vomit~
Emo mood turn on: This is what i feel now..

.

i have something to tell you,dude.=]

not enough time to sleep again..
feel so blur all day long...
almost get scold from canteen's worker because forget to take my balance money when i paid.
Tired? i don't know...maybe...
Just lay on the table for whole day in the class...
there's nobody i want to talk with.
maybe i moody...or i don't like to talk today...
they got their friends to talk with...
so i better take time to sleep when teacher was not teaching...
lazy day...people ask me something i just nod..or just said:ohhhh~hmm~ okay~
today cik aggamah caught me yawn in the class..
call me sit on floor and study..==
all student were standing behind except me was sitting on the floor..
good too. i extremely tired...i don't want to stand.
i rather sit on the dirty floor.
after a while,teacher call me to sit back to my place..LOL.
Then i yawn again when teacher didn't look at me.
Today teacher teaching komsas..poem and so on...
it is saying about friends..
Yeah...teacher is right! who would help us in the end? she bet just
a few friends would stand for us and fight with us..
I realize of cause. who will care whether you are die or what...
I need a true friend,not a fake friend who just fake to supporting me,
treat me so good infront of me but say something bad behind me..
And i'm glad because i found a true friend.
all friend were betrayed me before. i still remember..just you would stay with me
when i had a hard time..honestly, thank you so so much!
i still remember that time we were just felt so strange to each other.
at the end, we build up a good friendship until now..
i first time saw she defend me..
at the end we chase by her,a fatty! LOL.
i also realize that we have the same hobbies..
and we face so many problem together...
hey dude...
if without you now,i don't know what person i will be...
i don't know how to survive without you now...
i need you every time...you are everything for me...
but....am i everything for you too?
we ain't same class now...
in your eyes maybe i always with others friend and
you will think you are not important for me..in fact not...
you are the only one who willing to help me when i ask for help...
you are the only one who willing to accompany stay until 6.45pm at school.
you are the only one who call me at night and willing to listen my happen.
you are the only one who willing to help me find dictionary together..
all the things you do for me i would never forget..
we went many place before...like genting,KL,sitiawan.
i still remember we kacau by a so lou in the bus and we don't know why
we still can laughing.><
i scare actually... but when i with you...
scary things also can be a funny things.
And when we are at genting... our room is locked...
we so scare in the outside..remember?
we saw the door got something and moving non-stop.
we ran back to our hotel room..HAHAHA. we can still laugh too.
And i remember we first time took bus back my home.. LOL..
we sat at the behind there..so "dan" behind..
we almost jump out from our seat,and we keep on laughing.
is was fun! HAHAHA.

you are important in my life,dude.
Don't try to leave me,dude.
i scare of the day without you accompany me.
i need your shoulder when i cry..
i need your care when i sad..
i need your voice when i feel lonely...
my life is full of colour when you beside me..
Fun is around me when you are here..
Thanks because you cheer me up all the time..
no one can compare to you in my "position".
you are always the first person i thinking of when i have trouble,sad or whatever .
aren't you too?
am i the first too?
i love you,dude.=]

I need some fresh air.

ummm....
give me something interest to do..
is so so so so bored now. SOS!
the account project is almost done..
is the front page haven't gam dim yet..
tonight ask daddy pick me to the cc.=]
Thursday pass up,then i can concentrate my study.
final exam is coming soon..you know?
i don't have such the mood to study..but i don't want to see my study fall behind again.
I will jealous with someone again if someone get the marks that higher than me.
LOL.

I think i need to do some exercise to refresh my brain. wahaha.
who can go jogging with me this weekend?who want to go?i need somebody
accompany me.
wow...recently my family is so addicted on swimming.
we almost go stadium every sunday.
yeah. is really dirty. the swimming pool is still okay,but the toilet.dirty lo.
feeling good to swim with those kiddie. my mom friend's children.hahaha.

what's wrong with me today?!
I wa soooo sleepy in the class.
curiously enough,i slept whole day yesterday.
once i back home at 2pm,i slept until 7pm only woke up...
then bath and dinner..nearly 12am midnight i go bed again..
enough time to sleep yesterday.
but today why felt so sleep one? i keep on yawning in the class.
absent mind too. had a day dream whole day. LOL.
maybe i shouldn't sleep over start now..
HAHA. I'm on diet,okay? That's why my family go to swim every sunday.
is just because of me. hahaha.
At school i eat less also. Just now went and measure my weight.
opps! i just lost 1 kg! but at least have lost my weight. HAHA.
keep going..i can do it.=]

Monday.=]

Today see movie with wei ling at jusco..
so wake up early in the morning and waiting my mom fetch me.
i knew she must be late..i told wei ling 10am will arrive her house.
but my mom almost 12pm reach there..LOL.
Then we go and buy movie ticket..''vampire suck''
OMG. crowded...so many people line up and buy ticket..=.=
and i notice that a couple is staring at us.==
what's wrong?? LOL. I don't care la.
after buy ticket we go to McD eat Mcflurry. hoho.
i very long time didn't eat this. yummy!
ish..we saw our enemy sitting beside us!
aiyer..stick a tattoo on her arm wor~
hate her! talk something about us to her mother.
don't think we don't know. sei 8 po!
i don't know why my sister is her best friend previous.==
time's up!
almost 1.30pm
we go back to the cinema there and buy popcorn and soda.
wow.regular popcorn just like large popcorn. call us how to finish it.
There's no small popcorn to sell one.
no choice~ we bought the regular popcorn.we go to the cinema room and put our snack to the seat. wei ling cover it with her jacket before we went to the toilet.HAHAHA.
scare somebody eat it.AHA~
Movie start.
almost teenager watch this movie. walao~ idiot enough.everyone is laughing until the movie end.
and we both too..laugh until tears come out.
After watch movie we went to sing K~
just we two..syok~~ although just we two in the K room also feel so high.
we don't care whether we sing wrongly or what. Just shout and sing.
feel so cold in the K room. no jacket also. cold until i can't sing anymore.
sudden i waiter come and ask us pay money 1st.
Then wei ling sudden said her purse is missing! what?!
LOL. luckily it just drop on the floor only.haha. if not we die,i not
enough to pay..and the boy ask us what is the song we sing now.
then i ans: Give you hell~ then he ans: ohh..i see.
LOL. he so cute.
6:30..Mom's calling..i have to back..
wei ling too..but i shopping with my mom awhile when wei ling was back.
after that mom go to grandma's house.
almost 10pm only back home and take dinner as our supper.
Online after dinner and shower..haha.
play uno with wei ling in the msn.LOL.
i never win.==
2am...go to bed~

selamat hari raya to my malay friends.

Today visit two malay friends' house..
haha..today's fun and cool...
visit with my mom and a friend..
food is tasty..not too spicy...love their ketupat and curry.
HAHA..of course received green pau too.hehe.
i love their malay's decoration..so many old things in the cupboard..
like plate and iron and something..
sudden think of my old best friend,intan nabilah..
so i decided to text her today..
thanks God that she still remember me! i wish her happy hari raya
and ask her when have back to ipoh..sooooooo miss her!
you know? every year's hari raya i will miss her one,because i visit her house when i was
standard 6..her mom keep give me biscuit and food..ask me eat more..
and we played fire cracker too.
It was fun,man..miss the moment so.
today almost 11pm only back home..tired and full.

tomorrow! say happy birthday to my grandma.
all my cousin back from KL because grandma's birthday.
wheee~
but have to go tuition after the celebration..
here i wish my grandma's healthy and strong.
may God bless you.:)

P.S: Vampire suck and step up 3..cinema,cinema.here i come!

stress...sighs~

Exam coming...shit lo~still not having such that mood to study...
just think of playing and fun...
seriously,after came back from penang i feel so ''cheerful''.
maybe having a lot of fun at there..laughing none stop...although is just visit temple more than shopping...
but really feel so happy when back from penang...
look the sea and breath the fresh air...
whooo~relax~ :D
hmmm...long time didn't have this feeling lu~
Thanks,cousin intro this trip to me.HAHA.

so today i ask wei ling hang out with me for doing revision.
tomorrow is exam...
wish me wish me~
history!the most noob subject!
so today went to Starbucks study...
hmm...
not really study...i think talk more than study..
HAHAHA.
of couse...our topic is unlimited...talking everything..there's no secret between us..:)
Then 5:30pm..we pack our things and heading to school..
but i want to go Watson buy some personal things..
walking~~~
wow! is that i didn't go parade very long time?
feel so shock,sudden appear a SASA shop..then we go in...
always addicted to the mask..bought two pack of mask and wei ling bought 3 pack of wet tissue.
hahaha..the sale girl so good..free 2 masks for us..i gave wei ling a mask then...
after bought,we run back to school..
LOL...just like a crazy woman run on the road..hahaha.
rush time..luckily bus havent come yet.aha~

after back home,mom told me that she gonna sell our old wira car tomorrow..:(
huh? so sad...feel tak sanggup hati to sell to another people...coz it with us when we was little.
how old i am is the how old to the car...sighs...really ng sek dek...
but who said the car always can't start the engine and car door can't open?
so we force to sell it..haix~Now house just have a car only...
hmmmm....
bye bye,old car...haix~~~~
hope your new master treat you good ba..
hou ng sek dek the 6516 car number .:(

anyway,still have to study harder tonight..start to burn the midnight oil.xD

tears...

tell me what should i do...
i'm so worry and helpless now...
why today sudden happen so many things..
i can't accept it..especially grandma...feel so pity for her...
the most worry is grandma now..
if she sudden can't remember anything,forget who i am..
i surely will crying in front of her...
i want to go grand mom's house and take care of her this weekend...
i know she must be too alone..
just alone in a house everyday..nobody care...
grandma fall down when went to the toilet also nobody know that..
sitting in the toilet for whole day and no eating for whole day also nobody know that..
Luckily aunt came to my grand mom's house.. but when she found my grandma...
my grandma already lost her memory...:(
my uncle ask her question she don't have feeling anymore...
she too afraid and sudden lost her memories i think...wuwuwu...
luckily few hours ago,grandma can talk to us..better right now...
why will sudden like that..i still worrying this now..:(
get well soon,grandma..:(
hope everything will turn back to the normal..
i sudden lost my mind...
out of control and crying in the class...
why friends ask me what happen...
if they don't ask why,maybe i won't cry...
once i cry i can't stop it...recently really feel so down...parent and family problem...
mom and dad...don't you can't understand my feeling?
i don't want to lost this family...
mom....trust dad he won't do this for you anymore...
he regret already..please trust him...
i don't want have any change between mom and dad...you know?
be your daughter is suffering if see this happen and i cannot do anything for you two...:(
looking my mom crying because of my dad,i feel so pain in my heart...
cannot find the words to describe..:(